2016: Year of Tears
Many people I have talked with have been more than ready to leave 2016 in the past. It’s been full of challenging experiences and various emotions.
I can relate to this exponentially because 2016 was a complex year for me as well.
I felt heartache, grief, fear, frustration, hope and many other emotions in just about every area of my life. I seriously thought I was on a roller coaster and unaware of which turn was coming next…
I cried more this year than I have in a very long time, hence my title of the Year of Tears.
I cried by myself. I cried with other people.
I cried out in nature. I cried at yoga.
I cried because of sadness. I cried because of pure happiness.
But you know the beauty of crying? It’s a powerful release and sometimes we just need to do it. When I was taking an antidepressant, I felt numb to my emotions. I didn’t cry often and held in my feelings over the years. Now I think it is all releasing, which is needed.
Looking back, this year seemed like one gigantic test. I learned so much about myself, other people, the world, the Universe and realized that life is truly out of our control.
I lost my Nana and experienced true heartache.
I watched the news of local young boys lost too soon in car accidents.
Many celebrities lost their lives due to health and drug issues.
Then there was the election; causing so much division, fear and shock in our country.
So I think it’s safe to say it’s been difficult both personally and globally and many tears have been shed.
If 2016 didn’t show us how things can turn out different than we planned, then I don’t know what will.
When I talk to my clients with anxiety, we always discuss how us anxious, type A people love to have everything planned out. We constantly worry about the future and what it will bring, but usually things end up very different than we thought it would be. (Many times, even for the better)
I have had to learn (and teach) the importance of being present, surrounding oneself with positive people and going with the flow.
I feel it has taught us what we need to be grateful for and to appreciate the little things. It can be so easy to get caught up in future plans and material things but none of that really matters.
So what does 2017 look like? One freaking surprise is how I am looking at it. I just hope it’s a brighter, positive, uplifting and sunshiny surprise compared to the darkness and lessons of this past year.
Of course I will still sit and reflect on 2016 and create my vision for the new year but I don’t think it will be as concretely written because I am trying to surrender, trust and go with the flow more than I ever have.
So, Happy New Year to you and your loved ones.
I see you, I hear you, I feel you, I love you. (Erasure)
“The beauty of life is, while we cannot undone what is done, we can see it, understand it, learn from it and change so that every new moment is spent not in regret, fear, guilt, or anger but in wisdom, understanding and love.” ~Jennifer Edwards
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